1,000 lbs.

Right now, things aren't perfect in life. Not even close. The wonderful thing is, we have all of these people praying for us. I know they are because they tell us on a regular basis that they are praying for us. I don't want to stomp on that. We really need that. But right now, I just feel a little discouraged. Today, it feels like someone has dumped 1,000 lbs. on my back. All around, I have these people saying, "You don't have to take it very far," "We know you can do it!" "We're praying for you that you'll be able to hold it up!" The problem is, I'm holding 1,000 lbs. on my back. So, I'm told to give that weight over to God. So I'm praying to God, "Please, can you help me out here? I'm willing to carry a big load but 1,000 lbs. is definitely more than I can carry." No answer. In fact, it's like someone decided that they could go ahead and dump another couple of hundred lbs. on because, for some reason, they feel I'm pretty strong and I'll be able to carry that, too. The fact is, I'm being crushed. So, I'm praying with all of my heart that God will come along and take some of the weight off, that he'll provide some sort of miracle that will just give even a little bit of release. Nothing. I'm starting to feel like Job. I'm thinking, "I don't understand! I didn't do anything to deserve this!" Others are telling me exactly what went wrong and what I should do but the fact is, they're not helping! You see someone with a 1,000 lbs. on their back on TV and you wish you could help them and you can call them on the phone and say that you're praying for them or you're telling them to be careful but, in the end, you don't truly know what it's like to carry that weight until you've done it yourself! Pray for me!! Pray that God, like he did for Job, will turn things around. Pray that I will be patient. Pray that I will understand. Pray for someone who's having trouble praying for themself. Please, just pray.