Losing

So, in the last year, I've really had to get myself accustomed to losing. Since I took over as head coach in the middle of last year, my teams have gone 1-30. That's absolutely horrible!!! The last year I was in Texas, I coached a freshman team. Essentially, I took over all the coaching of this team from a woman that was pregnant and knew she would be leaving after just a few games. We ended that season 25-3 and we were 16-0 after I had taken over. Our whole program at Bryan was successful like that. I thing between all three teams that season, we were 75-13 and 33-1 in district play. It was great to be a part of that and really hard to come take over a program that has done almost nothing but lose. We actually, although only winning one game, could call ourselves more successful than last year even though we aren't winning. The game we won, we won by 20 over a team we only beat by 6 last year. At the end of the season, we have actually been competitive and have come within 10 points of teams that beat us easily the first time we saw them. One of my seniors that didn't start playing basketball till she started high school, has dramatically improved. In the first half of the season, she had very little production. In the last three games, she has totalled almost 25 points and almost 35 rebounds. Those are the things I'm proud of and those are the victories I claim. It still sucks to lose. These girls deserve to see more than improvement. They deserve to end a game with their score being higher than the other team's, just one more time. We have two more opportunities for this to happen.

Weighted

I'm feeling pretty weighted today. Do you ever have those days where you literally feel like there's weight just pulling your shoulders down? That's how I'm feeling. It's kinda hard to shake off. It doesn't help that my basketball team is now 1-18. We have done nothing but fight an uphill battle. Things are so weird here in Delaware. I just received an email today from my Athletic Director asking me to not get any more technicals this season. Attached to the email was the report filed with the DIAA (Delaware Interscholastic Athletic Association) by the official that gave me a technical in a game a couple of weeks ago. If I get another technical this season (the other was my first and only one so far) I will be suspended from the following game. It's a little bit ridiculous especially when the officials here are so horrible. Don't get me wrong, I know it seems like I'm complaining because I'm losing but that's definitely not the case. We lost a game about 3 weeks ago by 30 points but it was officiated well and I thanked those officials after the game. It's not about being "given" anything. It's simply about calling the game correctly. Anyway, that's not all that's bugging me. In fact, that's kind of minor in comparison but it sure doesn't help. I want to be able to shift this weight a little and I feel kinda helpless to do so. It's hard to deal with so many things at one time on an emotional level. It drains me.

Letting It Out

I know the title of this blog is what I've chosen to name the blog but it's appropriate to what's going on. For those that actually read this from time to time, this may be the week to keep up. There is definitely, right now, a proverbial "cat" in a "bag" and it's about to be let out. I don't know how this is going to go. I'm anxious and a little intimidated. It's life-altering! I just hope that when it comes out, it doesn't completely tear down everything around. In fact, when this is let out, a lot of you will begin to understand a lot of the posts over the last 6 months.