Weighted

I'm feeling pretty weighted today. Do you ever have those days where you literally feel like there's weight just pulling your shoulders down? That's how I'm feeling. It's kinda hard to shake off. It doesn't help that my basketball team is now 1-18. We have done nothing but fight an uphill battle. Things are so weird here in Delaware. I just received an email today from my Athletic Director asking me to not get any more technicals this season. Attached to the email was the report filed with the DIAA (Delaware Interscholastic Athletic Association) by the official that gave me a technical in a game a couple of weeks ago. If I get another technical this season (the other was my first and only one so far) I will be suspended from the following game. It's a little bit ridiculous especially when the officials here are so horrible. Don't get me wrong, I know it seems like I'm complaining because I'm losing but that's definitely not the case. We lost a game about 3 weeks ago by 30 points but it was officiated well and I thanked those officials after the game. It's not about being "given" anything. It's simply about calling the game correctly. Anyway, that's not all that's bugging me. In fact, that's kind of minor in comparison but it sure doesn't help. I want to be able to shift this weight a little and I feel kinda helpless to do so. It's hard to deal with so many things at one time on an emotional level. It drains me.